Renewal

Hi guys!! So recently I received my results for my exams and it was a mind blowing experience. Before the results day, I was starting to lose weight, though unintentionally. It wasn’t like I stopped eating, I was eating as I usually do, but nothing was working. I felt deflated a lot and as if something was pressing down on me. On my results day, I woke up prepared for the worst case scenario of me completely flopping and having to rethink a plan. I open my results to find that I did fine. It was in the moment I felt pure joy, I felt as if I was free, like there was nothing holding me down. When I thought about it I realised that I was stressed about the results before and it was having a negative effect on me both physically and mentally. I tried beforehand to get myself to a mentally stable place but with the fear of failure eating me up, I just wasn’t able to do it. I prayed and prayed and prayed, but I still felt horrible. I knew that once I found out my results, I could move on. But what a relief it was to find out that I had done well. That God had pulled me through. Through this experience I found that even when you doubt yourself, God never gives up on you. Though I felt as if I was going to fail every exam, I still prayed and asked God to go before me. And that he did. I know that no matter the situation, God's got my back like the ultimate bestie.

Why do I tell you this? Well it’s because though I felt totally and utterly rubbish, God used the situation for a renewal of my spirit. He used my weakness to show me that no matter my plans, God has a plan, that he is my refuge and strength that I can glide like an eagle when rested in him. I encourage you to always rest on God no matter the situation and remember that He knows your future. He knows HIS plans for your life, so leave it up to him.

Ellah xx